September 16. 2012

So Much





"Empty House", Knut Kargel
Artificial Stone Prints, 2009




So Much

today I missed you so much
all I could do was
sit in my car and whimper
today I missed you so much
all I could do was
stand in the middle of
my office and
rock back and forth
today I missed you so much
all I could do
was sit at the
dining room table
in front of an empty plate
as the pot boiled over on the stove
today I missed you so much
that I put the keys in the
refrigerator
today I missed you so much
I drove right passed
home
today I missed you so much
i went shopping
and didn't buy anything
today I missed you so much
i went to the movies
and just sat in the parking lot
then I went to the mall
and didn't get out of the car
today i missed you so much
i'm not sure what today is
today i missed you so much
i wouldn't go out of the house
today i missed you so much
i gave away the cats.
last night i missed you so much
i listened to the crickets
play all night long
last night i missed you so much
i walked from room to room to room
all night long
last night i missed you so much
i just watched the bathtub fill up
last night i missed you so much
i just clicked the tv channels
back and forth
last night i missed you so much
i stared up at the ceiling staring
down at me
last night i missed you so much
i pulled the cover over my head
and listened to myself breathe
last night i missed you so much
i went and got gas at the all night store and
forgot to put my teeth in
so i drove home on empty
and went back into my
empty home and walked
into every room and i
meowed like the cats
i gave away.
because tomorrow
i know
i'm gonna miss you so much.